I’m calling this “Mormons and Cosmic Consciousness.” Note the title does not refer to “Mormonism,” or “the Mormon Church” or “the LDS church.” Let’s draw a clear distinction between the icky hierarchy (more on that below) and the lay members who serve as the backbones of the organization.

Now if you aren’t aware of many (or any) Mormons or ex-Mormons, you might be wondering “why are we talking about this?” Or you might be wondering “what the fuck is a Mormon?” Mormons are members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, a distinctly American Christian sect with headquarters in Salt Lake City. I don’t have time to describe a bunch of church history here—so if you would like a humorous and catchy quick primer, click to watch “All American Prophet,” a song from the Book of Mormon broadway musical soundtrack.

In 2018 I’m taking part in a cosmic awakening journey. In my quest for knowledge and higher consciousness, I realize that a lot of vocabulary that I had retired many years ago are now suddenly seeping back into my perception. Words like “Christ Consciousness,” “God,” “Source,” “Priesthood/Priestcraft,” “Melchizedek,” are woven into the high vibes discussions that occur in various consciousness Internet forums and events. At first I chafed at seeing these words again—they shot me straight back to a time in which I was enmeshed in a negative culture that molded my worldview and gobbled up any free time that I could ever wish to have. Also, being gay and Mormon isn’t any fuckin’ fun either.

So now that Mormonism is in my (or possibly our) rear-view mirror, why am I bringing all of this shit up? Well maybe it’s the Schumann Resonance spiking this week, or maybe it’s my meditation practice, or perhaps the fact that since January I’ve met several Pleiadian starseeds in my town who, incidentally, all share my first name. (Five of us total have the exact same first name. How fuckin’ weird is that?) In any case, I feel that as a soul group we are nearing a flashpoint of zero point or of singularity. As I’ve delved int personal inner work, shadow work, and healing of traumas in my body (etheric, emotional, physical) embedded in my cellular memory—I’ve begun to realize that I’m going to have to walk through some Mormon mud puddles all over again before I reach my own personal Sacred Grove of cosmic consciousness (that’s a reference only Mormons’ll get).

So why do I postulate that people who gravitate to Mormonism are inclined to be cosmically conscious? Well the first big-ass hint is the sheepishly revered hymn “If You Could Hie to Kolob,” which Mormons love to sing but church leadership does not love to shout from the rooftops. What’s it about? Oh, just interstellar travel via thought across the galaxy to the star that God lives on, as well as the universe beyond. Don’t believe me? Here’s the full official hymn with lyrics on LDS.org, and here’s the Mormon Tabernacle Choir singing a version of the hymn. Let’s check out a snippet of lyrics below:

If you could hie to Kolob

In the twinkling of an eye,

And then continue onward

With that same speed to fly,

Do you think that you could ever,

Through all eternity,

Find out the generation

Where Gods began to be?

There are a bunch more verses in the hymn, but verse #2 forays more into cosmic territory:

Or see the grand beginning,

Where space did not extend?

Or view the last creation,

Where Gods and matter end?

Methinks the Spirit whispers,

“No man has found ‘pure space,’

Nor seen the outside curtains,

Where nothing has a place.”

The whole song is pretty damn cosmic if you ask me. Or ask any Mormon for that matter. There is one particular Mormon who blogged in 2004 for Times and Seasons who shares resonant opinions with me. They wrote: “We don’t talk much about Kolob in my ward. I have the general impression that the church has de-emphasized the very idea of Kolob. But this hymn is of course only peripherially about Kolob. What it is really about is the endlessness of creation, and that is an endlessly fascinating theme.”

This quote transitions us to the poit of this Mormongasmic post. I postulate that:

  1. Individual Mormons possess a personality type that is inclined to be cosmically conscious.

  2. The Mormon church serves as an enticing honeypot for people who would like to intertwine cosmic-ness with spirituality.

  3. The Mormon church is a cunningly crafted honeypot which has, at least since the early 20th century if not before, become very effective at controlling and busying its members so that individual members are caught in a feedback loop in spiritually stagnant, docile, compliant state.

Whenever you think of Mormons, you probably think of settlers and pioneers, crafts, bonnets, and old-time Americana charm. But I’m here to tell you that once you dive in past that folksy veneer, this church lets its mystic freak flag fly a bit. What are my reasons for this? Let’s explore:

  • Mormon gospel teaches that you existed before your incarnation and you will exist as the same person after your incarnation (kind of like “reincarnation lite,” they don’t believe that you’ve been other avatars in this consciousness hologram like I do, but they do believe that you were Susie before you were born in the flesh as Susie).

  • Christians believe in an afterlife and all, but Mormons go a bit further with their concept of eternity. You are sealed to your soul family for eternity in the Mormon temple. Actions and rituals you do here on Earth matter to your eternal progression. Full impact isn’t realized until further down the line once you’ve departed your temporary body. Mormons believe that after death and Christ’s resurrection and return, the righteous will be reunited with a physical body and that Earth will metaphysically morph into a crystalline orb. A giant-ass Seer Stone in space. Is this a hint at crystalline consciousness? But speaking of those temples…

  • Mormon temples are places where practitioners bestowed with the Melchizedek Priesthood administer Freemason-derived rituals, handshakes, and symbols to Mormons who attend the temple. We in the awakening community tend to have an understanding that Freemasonry dabbles in occult esoterica, especially at upper echelons of the organization.

  • Joseph Smith’s genuine curiosity, mixed with his bloviating narcissistic personality disorder, resulted in a random chunk of ancient Egyptian esoterica being woven into Mormon gospel canon. The Book of Mormon was translated from a language known as “Reformed Egyptian” (something that Smith made up) and some ancient Egyptian papyri from recently-dug sarcophagi ended up in Smith’s hands back in the early to mid 1800’s, which were later “translated” into the Book of Abraham. Lithographs of the papyri exist in Mormon scripture, located at the back of the expanded edition of the Book of Mormon that members read. The BOM that you get for free on the street from doe-eyed 19-year-old missionaries will not have the Egyptian facsimiles printed in the back.

  • Mormons believe that Jesus Christ was Quetzecoatl. What’s extra funny about this is that Mormon Jesus is VERY euro-white and VERY blue-eyed. So that must’ve been a sight to see in ancient Mesoamerica. Honestly, we could do an entire post about the Mormon fascination with Aztec, Mayan, and Mesoamerican civilizations. The Book of Mormon describes the journey of a family from Jerusalem who set sail for the Americas at around 600 BC or thereabouts. What’s in Mormon lore doesn’t quite match up with (mainstream and questionable) world history. From what we know about the Aztecs, Quetzalcoatl was a feathered serpent, a flying reptile (not unlike a dragon). This god was a boundary-maker (and transgressor) between earth and sky. He was a creator deity having contributed to the creation of Mankind.

  • Mormons (quietly) believe that there is a Heavenly Father but also a Heavenly Mother. To Mormons, God the Father has a divine, feminine complement. Of course in true patriarchal form, Heavenly Mother is completely subservient to her eternal husband. But the emphasis on a divine masculine and divine feminine compliment is, shall I say, unique among Christian faiths.

  • In 1892, Brigham Young decided to channel his inner H.G. Wells and insisted quite publicly and quite enthusiastically that Mormon missionaries would soon travel to the Moon in order to evangelize to and baptize giant lunar inhabitants. I used to laugh at this notion. However today I kind of suspect that there are hidden bases on the Moon, so who’s to say that such an idea is crazy? Said Brigham: “Nearly all the great discoveries of men in the last half century have, in one way or another, either directly or indirectly, contributed to prove Joseph Smith to be a Prophet. As far back as 1837, I know that he said the moon was inhabited by men and women the same as this earth, and that they lived to a greater age than we do - that they live generally to near the age of a 1000 years. He described the men as averaging near six feet in height, and dressing quite uniformly in something near the Quaker style.”

This small set of examples are quite cosmic, would you agree? Paradoxically, even though the church dangles these elements in front of members with varying degrees of visibility—they get totally nervous if sleepwalking members get a little too cosmic. In awakening communities, I’ve come across the metaphor that surface humans on the planet are treated as livestock by the elite. I would definitely believe that similar “farming” occurs in the Mormon church and predominantly Mormon cultures/communities. Additionally, you will find that higher-ranking Mormons tend to be titans of business or industry. Most Apostles in the Quorum of the Twelve have achieved monetary success and wealth via a variety of ways. Mormon Royalty includes surnames like the Marriotts, the Romneys, and the Huntsmans.

Church leaders are the very definition of American stalwart corporatism. And it’s a culture that permeates from the top to the middle of the Mormon pyramid. Looking back at my upper middle class Mormon upbringing, I see how I am so very well-versed in corporate verisimilitude that it unconsciously permeates many aspects of my holographic avatar (that’s what I refer to as my personality or incarnational body). Is corporatism hollow? Yes. Is it meaningless? Yes. Is it political? Yes. Do I rock it? Fuck yes.

Said corporatism is the most obvious public brand of Mormonism and Mormon leadership. And those church leaders run a VERY tight ship. So much so that their geriatric, racist, mysoginist, withered stranglehold will, in my opinion, likely usher in the Church’s demise over the next 5-20 years. But that’s a topic for another post.

So the Corporation of the President of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (yes that’s what it’s called), like any good company, has distinct administrative departments that run seamlessly throughout the globe. One of the most powerful forces in this corporation is the church’s Correlations Department. This specific small department has outsized influence and control over the entire organization. Were you to magically switch places with a Mormon right this very moment, you would quickly find that your day would be completely FULL of Mormon-related tasks, and every church calling or task or what-have-you brings a corresponding booklet, pamphlet, handbook, or instruction manual that rigidly delineates what you are supposed to do, or say, and how. These materials are provided by your friends in the Correlations department at the Church Office Building (or COB) in Salt Lake—and your compliance is respectfully requested.

Have you noticed that the Mormons you know in your life are enthusiastic, eager-to-please, talented, and ambitious? But they can also be anxious, self-flaggelating, and averse to ambiguity? Personality traits such as these might be related to conditioning that people undergo throughout their membership in the church. I am of the opinion that said conditioning and personality programming are administered via church media and multitudinous church-related events.

When administering to their (energetically farmed) livestock, church leaders know they walk a very fine line… they want members to be enthusiastic and eagerly devouring the gospel, but they don’t want members to ask too many questions. They want you to probe scripture, but they want you to gloss over concepts like Kolob and Heavenly Mother. When an apostle visits your chapel, they want you to ask questions—but only pre-approved and safe questions. And whatever you do, if you’re in Sunday School don’t bring up the fact that there’s a giant erect penis visible in the [Egyptian Facsimile #2]() in the Book of Abraham. No homo.

The Mormon church is the veritable definition of a “limited hangout.” They strongly define the boundaries of the livestock pen and what it takes for you to be in or out of the pen. I’ve grown up in the animal pen being told that The Queers and the Femininazis are dangerous and will inject me With All The AIDS if I ever dared to leave. But delicious hyperbole aside, the Correlation department’s reach still only extends so far. Try as they might, they can’t quite control every piece of art created by a Mormon and every piece of media produced by a Mormon. So there are some interesting examples of Mormons reaching for the stars and tapping into cosmic consciousness to the (mild or hidden) chagrin of creepy church leaders.

Check out a smattering of curated examples of cosmic Mormonism showing up in the arts and media:

  • Battlestar Galactica:“There are those who believe… that life here… began out there!” Remember the iconic opening of this groundbreaking show from 1978? This iconic sci-fi drama was produced by a man named Glen Larson who, how shall I say, borrowed very liberally from Mormon gospel when scriptwriting the show. You may remember on the show how the colonies originated on the planet Kobol, were all life began. Sound familiar? The "Lords" lived there. It was called "The Lost Planet of Ancient Gods.” There are so many Mormon tie-ins to the show that I simply have to link you to this article that breaks them all down. Side note: the BSG/LDS podcast described in the article was also a really good episode!

  • Ender’s Game: You can see some Mormon themes permeate Orson Scott Card’s most popular tome. The idea of conscripting smartie kids to fight an intergalactic battle has some basis in a Book of Mormon story of the 2,000 Stripling Warriors, where children in one particular pocket of a Mesoamerican civilization were ripped from their childhood and sent to war. Ender’s Game is not an example of direct or semi-direct scriptural storytelling, but it can be perceived as piece of literature that was clearly shaped by the Mormon mindset of its author.

  • Saturday’s Warrior: South Park creators, step aside. SW is the OG Mormon musical. Nobody outside of Mormon circles really knows about this piece, however. Slate magazine did a recent write-up about the cultural phenomenon. It was penned by a man named Lex De Azevedo, who served as producer and show runner for 70’s glamtastic variety shows like The Sonny & Cher Show and Donnie & Marie, as well as music director for The Jackson Five. Azevedo’s musical is the most cosmic thing in my list of examples. This musical should literally be called “Starseed: The Musical* with lyrics in the opening song like: “Strangers from a realm of light / who have forgotten all / the memory of their former life / the purpose of their call / and so they must learn why they’re here / and who they really are / These are the few, the warriors / Saved for Saturday / to come the last day of the world / These are they, on Saturday.” I will do a full post or a podcast episode someday about the intersection of Saturday’s Warrior and cosmic consciousness. In the meantime, check out this post I made on another Reddit forum [highlighting some of the cosmic lyrics](). Guess what the sequel was called. STAR CHILD! Time to come out of the #CosmicCloset, Lex!

Boy, Mormons sure were having a moment back in the 70’s, weren’t they? It’s heartening to see the artistic and vocal expression of Mormon members turn toward the cosmic. Toward the stars. If Mormons are conditioned to ignore the inner, at the very least we can cheer when we see them reaching upward and outward toward a benevolent interstellar community, as well as reaching backwards in (what we perceive as) linear time in order to connect with resonant populations such as the mysterious ancient Egyptians. In fact, my fascination and fixation (and experience with) the gestalt consciousness known as RA can likely be partially credited my seminary indoctrination in high school. Additionally, I can thank seminary schooling for beautiful campy shit like mormon Aaron Eckhart starring in a 10-minute short church video about chastity. Yes, this video is real. Since this college video, Aaron left the grips of the LDS cult. Aaron “Two-face” Eckhart doesn’t like showing off his Mormon past very much—not unlike fellow ex-Mormon alumni such as Ryan Gosling, or Jewel, or Chelsea Handler, or Dustin Lance Black, or Christina Aguilera, or Katherine Heigl, or (the late) Paul Walker for that matter.

As an ex-Mormon myself, I can only promise another cosmically awakening Mormon a long road of inner-work, shadow work, and and parasitism and/or programming removal. It’s a road worth traveling toward higher and lighter consciousness, but a long road nonetheless.


Gaia and the meat-suited humans inhabiting its environs are evolving into a reality framework that is much bigger, more timeless, and much more intertwined than anyone previously imagined. As this process continues, we are going to find that sleepwalking humans (who aren’t NPCs) will snap out of their slumber in a shocking, whiplash-like manner. I maintain that there are populations of waiting-to-be-awakened souls who will have an easier time transitioning to this new Earth than others. And I count many Mormons among those ranks.

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Oops I mean, all men. ;)